Jumping out of my skin

Sometimes I get this really weird sensation.  I feel

  • jumpy
  • awkward
  • hyper
  • restless
  • scattered
  • unsettled
  • unstable


I’ve come to think of this as feeling as though I’m jumping out of my skin.

It feels very weird to me because normally, most of the time, I feel pretty calm & have a pretty good idea what the word equanimity really means, & feels like, even.

Two days ago I had an intense case of feeling as though I was jumping out of my skin. It took me until the next day to realize that the moon was almost full – will be officially full on January 26th (today, as I scrawl this on the streetcar ride, yesterday as I now post this).

Well, there you go! That is probably why I felt so jumpy & restless & weird.

Today, I feel great. It’s sunny, & I’m going downtown, going to spend the day hanging out at rallies about Line 9/tar sands coming to Toronto. What could be fun-er than that??  


p.s. on days like that, it’s a struggle not to lose one’s temper…one’s cool. On days like that, for me, one walk might not be good enough; two might be better! (Also, not hitting ‘Send’ on certain email messages, but letting them sit for a bit, for a sober 2nd look. & then, maybe, not sending them at all.   ) 

p.p.s. if you think our moods are not affected by the moon, I would remind you that every single thing that happens on Planet Earth is a solar event. The sun is located approximately 93 million miles away, & if it was suddenly snuffed out, guess who & what else would be, just like that?? We are definitely affected by some things that are located very far away from us indeed…

Quote of the day with this post: “Life can only be understood backwards, but must be lived forwards.” – Søren Kierkegaard (1813-1855), Danish philosopher