Appreciation = the magic

** A re-post, from November 2012. Still as true, in essence, as it was when I first wrote it (links have been updated).

A dear colleague/friend thanked me extravagantly the other day for who I am & what I do. I’m well aware that I’m a person who is much, much blessed. I have a lot of people in my life who love & appreciate me. I have meaningful work I love – & enjoy so much that I do it without pay!

But you see I am paid: I’m paid in appreciation. The work I’ve done for the past 20+ years (environmental activism & writing) is so engaging to me that I’ve done most of it without a paycheque (& yes, thankfully at times there have also been some paying gigs).

But all along the way, I’ve known that my efforts have always been (still are) much appreciated.

I think some sort of little (or actually big!) miracle happened for me along the way. In the wake of a huge personal life disaster 17 years ago, I took up the gratitude habit (being actively grateful for this, that & the other thing; many postings on this blog about that; many are listed here) – & I am regularly actively grateful for much, much indeed and, I am simultaneously much appreciated.

It’s magic! Or it sure seems that way to me…

None of this has anything whatsoever to do with the official “economy.” It operates outside that realm entirely. And as you can see, it’s a rather magical, circular phenomenon, hmmm?

Unfortunately, I do not have a magic wand at my disposal. I cannot make this work in anyone else’s life. You have to create or invoke it in your own life, yourself. It works from the in-side out, not the out-side in. It’s your own creation.

I don’t think it matters at all who you are, or what kind of work you do. For example, a woman just came by where I am sitting (at a coffee shop in a mall, the sort of place I love to hate) – to sweep up some stuff on the floor. And I thought “Yup. She too can do the gratitude thing, & be appreciated for what she does.” It will work for anyone! (If she had looked my way, she would have seen that I was smiling at her; even a smile can make you feel appreciated!)

The process merely requires sincerity & faithfulness. And practice. Lots of practice. Practice makes perfect!

So while I'm going to have to start earning some money soon (new life phase approacheth), I’ll keep right on being grateful, &, I suspect, feeling appreciated.

I sure do wish this magic for all of us on Planet Earth!!


p.s. I've hung around with quite a few teachers in my life. Teachers (in Canada, anyway) are paid a pretty decent salary (well, not compared to bigshots in industry – but let’s face it, some of those dudes are a little overpaid…wouldn’t you say??). I’ve known a couple of teachers really well, & I know they were grateful for their salaries…but also that it felt especially wonderful when a student or colleague let them know they were appreciated. Paycheques are delightful, & they sure do help pay the bills & all that. But they are rather poor at conveying appreciation. We human beings need to feel appreciated. It’s very very important for our mental health!!

p.p.s. & needed. We want, & need, to be needed. At least I am pretty sure this is true...

‘Quote of the day’ with this post: “In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but the gratefulness that makes us happy.” – Albert Clarke, quoted in Speak Peace in a World of Conflict – What You Say Next Will Change Your World, by Marshall B. Rosenberg. (more quotes & postings about gratitude here.)

Runner-up: “We can no longer have everything we want, but we can be more than we ever imagined.” – Howard Jerome, quoted in Life, Money & Illusion – Living on Earth as if we want to stay, by Mike Nickerson [italics added by me, for emphasis]  




Blown to smithereens.

Blown to bits with bomb-like force.


Everyone involved

The “guilty”

& the “innocent” alike



Changed utterly

Unable to properly reassemble themselves


How could it be otherwise?


Casualties of war

Every last one of us.


<May 4/16.>

I feel … “human” again today.


Yesterday was not a good day.

I felt like I was spinning.

I was sad.

I was anxious.

I felt like a mess, pretty much, to be perfectly honest with you.


But today is a new day!

Had some sleep.

Took some time to lie quietly in bed for a long while after I woke up. A meditation time, sort of. (Yes, cheating. Lying down.)


Washed the dishes that had been sitting there for a couple of days. 🙁

Sitting on a bench now, by the lake

after a walk


Tom Harpur thinks that’s what “the Resurrection” in Christianity is actually meant to be about.

It’s a myth. A metaphor.


We rise every day with a clean(ish) slate.


Makes sense to me!

Not a big fan of organized religion, personally.

(My posts on this subject


I think it doesn’t matter so very very much what we were taught.
We need to grab some truth now.


Resurrection is possible

for each of us

every day


Every day

Every minute!


(& for sure, a good night’s sleep can put a whole new slant on life.

It sure often does for me!)



‘Quote of the day’ with this post:

“If you need to feel hope, you’re courting despair, and if you court despair you will stop working. So try to wean yourself from this need to have hope. Try to have faith instead, to do what you can, and stop worrying about whether or not you’re effective…Worry about what is possible for you to do, which is always greater than you imagine.” ~ Oscar Romero, activist priest from El Salvador, assassinated in 1980 while offering Mass.

Painted into a Corner

So, the human race has painted itself into a corner.


So we have

so we have

so we have.


Problems so many, now

Of such a daunting number, size & complexity

It’s too late now (far too late)

For us to “solve” them

(Actually, the problems we’ve created will “solve” us!)


We paint ourselves into corners too, though, as individuals, don’t we?


I think sometimes we can paint our way out, if we try


We can

  • change our mind
  • change our attitude … our perspective
  • say we’re sorry
  • show compassion
  • atone for past behaviour
  • behave differently … even if an apology is more than we’re able to offer
  • begin to follow a new path


It may even turn out to be easier than we think!

The first step is liable to be the trickiest

But the ones after that, easier & easier


(after all, it’s true that we “make the road by walking



Full disclosure?

I paint myself into corners too.



Well, I


  • wait for the paint to dry, then exit when it’s not so sticky anymore
  • knock down a wall
  • or crawl out a window
  • back up, back out, figure out a new dance step … one way or another
  • take a day off. Rest. Recuperate. Gotta do this sometimes…


Getting a little help from our friends never hurts!

Having a good conversation with someone can work wonders! 🙂

Taking a long walk can work miracles.


Being alone, stuck in a corner, is just no damn fun!


‘Quote of the day’ with this post:

“Rick wants a great big crowbar to crack him open so he can take whatever creature is sitting inside him and shake it clean like a rug, then rinse it in a cold, clear lake, and then put it under the sun to heal and dry and grow and come to consciousness again with a clear and quiet mind.” – from the Douglas Copeland novel Player One: What is to Become of Us

Bonus quote: “It is good to realize that falling apart is not such a bad thing. Indeed, it is as essential to evolutionary and psychological transformation as the cracking of outgrown shells.” – Joanna Macy in World as Lover, World as Self  Courage for Global Justice and Ecological Renewal

* Great recent Macy interview here!

True Confessions

<Friday, April 1/16>

  1. I feel like this whole week – ever since Monday – has been “down the rabbit hole.” Yikes. Yikes, sheesh & OMG.
  2. People drive me crazy. Are driving me crazy. We’re all crazy! (Me too, I know, I know.)
  3. I watch old episodes of the Lou Grant show lately. If I have a good novel to read, I read – but my patience for nonsense in novels is at an all-time low. That last one I read? & the one after it that I tried to read? Give me strength. Yay for old Lou Grant episodes. (& really good novels. 🙂 )
  4. Last night I had beer & popcorn for supper. (& watched Lou Grant…)
  5. I’m really not sure how much more craziness I’m up for.      You??
  6. Some days I feel a little … twitchy. Today seems to be one of them. Like I’m kind of …spinning.
  7. I sure do love birds a lot. I hear their chitter-chatter outside my apartment window (even in the winter. Well, you know, that winter-that-wasn’t-really-a-winter). This morning I heard seagulls, a woodpecker, & a cardinal (or two). Nice…
  8. I am really tired of everyone on the planet acting as though s/he is the only person in the world. Hogging more than her/his fair share of space – at the library (as just happened) … on the streetcar (some folks really need lessons in manners, hmmm?). Not watching where they’re walking along the sidewalk ‘cos they’re so caught up in that little device in their hands, hmmm? Talking way too loud on said device. You know, I think those little devices are helping make us all crazy (crazier). Just sayin.
  9. I cannot believe the earnestness of the two women I saw on the subway today – intently discussing the one woman’s plans to renovate her kitchen. Earnestness personified. Whoa…
  10. In this the year 2016, I agonize over such minutiae as buying a cup of coffee when I don’t have my reusable mug with me. Finding a kind of shampoo that isn’t full of dangerously toxic chemicals. Buying fruit that isn’t organic. The entire bloody world is going/has gone utterly to Hell in a hand basket all around me – & I’m still worrying about my own tiny morsels of garbage or waste. Meanwhile, living in the midst of an ocean of toxic air & sludge & a 1001 varieties of sick corruption. Sheesh. What a nut!? 🙁 🙂


p.s. the day after I posted this, I came across The New Lifeboat Hour series FIRST AID FOR CATACLYSM, in 3 parts. As I type this p.s. I am listening to the first one. I’ll add in this info to my near-term extinction resources page. 

‘Quote of the day’ with this post: “All great spirituality is about what we do with our pain. If we do not transform our pain, we will transmit it to those around us.” – Richard Rohr

Bonus Quote: “Many of the things we all struggle with in love and work can be helped by conversation. Without conversation, studies show that we are less empathic, less connected, less creative and fulfilled. We are diminished, in retreat.” – from Reclaiming Conversation – The Power of Talk in a Digital Age, by Sherry Turkle (trust me, the book is a must-read!!)

The Rose-Colored Glasses Brigade

Oceans dying.



Rising higher with melted glacier water

Creatures poisoned, toxic … dying

Coral reefs decimated

Plankton disappearing

Garbage patches multiplying

Plastic-choked ocean creatures & territories

Oil slicks

Chemical contamination

Radioactive waste.


On land?

Similar assaults of a 1000 shocking, appalling, unimaginable kinds

Bees facing extinction

Species extinctions reaching a shocking crescendo

As we kill mine torture poison experiment invade destroy corrupt.

The Earth itself poisoned, toxic

Our food growing in toxic soils

Watered with polluted water

(There is no clean water left on the planet)


The plants, critters (& we ourselves)

Breathing carcinogenic air


Protective ozone layer shredded.


Climate chaos breathing hotly down our necks

Very very hotly & heavily indeed.


But here come the members of the Rose-Colored Glasses Brigade!

Ever cheerful

(Ever deluded)


Everything will be fine!
Somehow, it will all work out!

🙂 🙂 🙂

If we just do this

If we just change that

(no sign anywhere of ANY of these massive changes needed, mind you

Changes that have been called for, for decades now…)


Nattering nonsense

Proffering platitudes


(fooling no one, I’ll warrant, least of all their very own selves)



Plain speaking?


Not. Wanted. On. The. Voyage … thank you very much



Biggest elephant in the room EVER

In all the millennia of our species’ history.


Fie on you, Rose-Colored Glasses Brigade


(note my considerate, & considerable, politeness here. No harsh swear words, though trust me, they tempt me)




Please please please please please


Spare me.



NTE (near-term extinction) categories on this blog:

  • NTE-related postings
  • NTE resources
  • Relevant Graphics
  • Relevant Quotes

Grief! Here & here
& hospice, here
Joanna Macy on How to prepare internally for whatever comes next

Quote of the day’ with this post:

“But what it comes down to is that we are here now. So the choice is how to live now. With the little time left, we could wake up more. We could allow this whole experience of the planet, which is intrinsically rewarding, to manifest through our heart-minds—so that the planet may see itself, so that life may see itself. And we can bless it in some way. So there is some source of blessing on us, even as we die. I think of a Korean monk who said “Sunsets are beautiful too, not just sunrises.” We can do it beautifully. If we are going to go out, then we can do it with some nobility, generosity and beauty, so we do not fall into shock and fear.” – Joanna Macy on how to prepare internally for whatever comes next

p.s. & yes. I’m STILL an activist… Why?       ‘cos activism rocks!

7 Billion

Posted on April 28, 2016 by Janet McNeill

7 billion people on the Earth

7 billion (human) “souls”

7 billion worlds!

(face it; we each live in a world of our own, do we not?)


7 billion worlds

7 billion pain bodies on parade

7 billion ways of seeing the world

being in the world

being the world


(not all of us with benign or generous or unselfish or Life-enhancing thoughts & schemes, hmmm?)



How can anyone … in her/his wildest imaginings? … imagine it possible

For 7 billion different worlds

To be “sustainable”


On this one, very-very beautiful, stunningly abundant … but oh-so-finite planet?





‘Quote of the day’ with this post:

“I wonder if she remembers that gift as well as I do. We didn’t have so many things in those days. There weren’t so many things to have. There was more to look forward to, but less to possess. It’s the other way round now.” – main character in the novel The Seven Sisters, by Margaret Drabble


“If a thing is never spoken between people who know each other well, and each knows the thing well, maybe it’s not a secret. …. It’s a powerful thing, that ability to tell the truth when the truth is upon you, but it has another power entirely when you don’t tell it.” –Stephen Jenkinson in Die Wise – A Manifesto for Sanity and Soul

“If you can’t say something, you can’t see it either.” – Stephen Jenkinson in Die Wise – A Manifesto for Sanity and Soul


* quotes about truth

* near-term extinction section of the blog (includes resources, quotes, Facebook support group links)

Chernobyl. 30 Years.

Not gonna to lie to you. I feel heartbroken a lot of the time lately.

There are, of course, many, many reasons to feel this way.

(((I used to feel mad – or even occasionally outraged – a lot. I actually used to have a bumper sticker on my car that read ‘If you’re not outraged, you’re not paying attention.’ That goes back a while… 🙂  Now, I mostly feel sad – but beyond sad, as I say. Heartbroken.)))

***** Interjection! Walking helps a lot. Being detached from my “devices” (laptop, email, Facebook, the Internet) helps too. Little kids & trees, also. (Well, & the lake, of course.) & music. & time with friends/loved ones, & walking. (Did I already mention walking?? 🙂 🙂 )


So. Today marks the 30th anniversary of the Chernobyl nuclear disaster (April 26, 1986). Still identified by many “experts” as the worst nuclear disaster ever – due (I think) to theextremely widespread geographical dispersion of its nuclear payload – on land. Fukushima is of course a monumental disaster/catastrophe also; some may speak of the great good fortune (for people) that so much of the fallout in Japan was blown toward the ocean, given the wind direction at the time, & less on land. (Good for people maybe; maybe not so good for the life/critters in the ocean, hmmm?)

Well. Those are details.

Go ahead & split hairs if you feel so inclined.



Fact is, the environmental disaster aspect pales (almost) beside the human impacts.

Meaning, the ongoing contamination in the air – the water – the soils – people’s food – the trees & plants & crops – & in people & critters’ bodies.

Particularly the bodies of children.

Last night, I watched a 43-minute documentary called ‘Children of Chernobyl 28 years later: a report on low level, long term radiation exposure’ – made in 2014 by a Japanese documentary filmmaker. About the long-term, ever-ongoing health impacts of the Chernobyl disaster – on the children of Ukraine (& Belarus & Russia, the areas of highest fallout).

Note that the impacts described in this documentary are not from a disaster that took place yesterday afternoon, or last year, or 5 or even 15 years ago – but 30 years ago.


Radiation / fallout = the ‘gift’ that goes on ‘giving.’ Genetic legacy, hmmm?


Human beings have done – continue to do daily – things so colossally stupid, thoughtless, cruel, malicious, dangerous and life-destroying – that I have to tell you, it just plain boggles my mind.


After (in my own case) just under 30 years of environmental activism.

Boggles my mind

breaks my heart.


Children – our children & our grandchildren – are the innocents.

How hugely we betray them.








p.s. last year’s (very angry) Chernobyl anniversary posting on this blog & the 2014 one (Chernobyl: 28 years, still breaking hearts).

p.p.s. the (recent) posting at this location provides many-many links about the situation in Chernobyl now, 30 years in.

p.p.p.s.  the nuke accidents they never tell you about



‘Quote of the day’ with this post: “Uranium is the mineral of the apocalypse.” – Donald Weber

Duct Tape



For some reason, duct tape came into my mind this morning.

I used to say I had to wear duct tape over my mouth when I lived up in Deep River.

As in, Do.Not.Talk.About.Nukes. (Most people in the exceptionally beautiful community on the Ottawa River – surrounded by Nature in stunning beauty & variety – make their livings from the nuclear industry. One simply does not diss nukes in Deep River. It.Is.Not.Done.)

You could call it living in a bubble. Some there know very well they do. (I know, ‘cos several folks said as much to me, without my ever prompting them.)

But then, as far as that goes, we’re all living in a bubble, hmmm?

99.9% of us, seemingly.



(see next post)


Now, I’d had to wear duct tape back in my married years. I was not really able to speak honestly about the truth, the whole truth, & nothing but the whole, real depth of the environmental crisis – what I saw coming for our species, down the road, & what I believed needed to be done about it; how to respond.

One still can’t, not really. Duct tape is still required. Truth is not on the menu, mostly.

Because we are delusional. (see next post)


Duct tape is mighty handy stuff. Don’t go out in a canoe without it!!

One day I was OIAC – out in a canoe – with friends.

A slight mishap occurred, & DT was needed to patch things up.

Fortunately, I’d obeyed my own commandment about when one is OIAC, & had some DT in my day pack.

Duct tape saved the day! 🙂 🙂 🙂


Now I wear (metaphorical) DT 99.9% of the time – because people don’t really want to hear the truth about the extreme perilousness of things on PE (Planet Earth).

Because We Are Delusional. (see next post)


That’s OK.

Fortunately, we all have the sanctity, the privacy, the privilege

of our own thoughts.


I don’t have to wear duct tape over my brain, my own thoughts.

I can let it all hang out in there.


Hallelulia for that!

🙂 🙂



p.s. I decided not to post the We Are Delusional post. ‘cos it’s kind of a rant. I’ll spare everyone that particular (somewhat rage-based) rant. 🙂

p.p.s. Joanna Macy on how to prepare internally for whatever comes next

Nature. & Relationships

<Jan. 11/16.>

So, a good friend & I were chatting recently.

She’s one of the relatively few people to whom I’m able to say (mild-ish) things about near-term extinction – the human extinction I believe almost everyone now accepts is coming – though there is certainly a wide range of opinions about the timeframe & likely speed of events/impact (some folks, of course, just plain deny its possibility – yet with little real credibility, wouldn’t you say??).

Does anyone really believes All Is Well Here On Planet Earth? – & that we can assume much of anything, really, about what’s coming in our own lifetimes, on the global level?


Some of the people I know are advising Brace For Impact, & I’d have to say, this counsel strikes me as wise. The climate stuff going on all around us is #OffTheCharts. & economic chaos is likely also headed our way (or jeez, already here…).

So. We were chatting, this friend & I, as I say. My friend gave a summary of what she believes are the things that Really Matter.

  • Nature
  • Relationships

& I thought

Wow. Yeah. Now there’s a nice tight little summary, hmmmm?

She & I are both crazy about trees & forests, pretty much, love to bike & cross-country ski &/or be out in a kayak or canoe. Nature-lovers. (Lots of people these daze seem to think life exists inside one device or another, & don’t seem to be noticing the planet going down in flames around us – the dying trees, oceans, species, habitat loss, runaway climate change, etc. etc. etc. Oblivious’R We, apparently.)

So. Nature – upon which we all rely utterly, dudes, hmmm? – though perhaps not all realize this??

  • Air for breathing
  • Water for drinking
  • Earth for growing food in


Yet here we are, trashing it all, fit to beat the band

at a furious rate

(furious both in terms of speed & ferocity)

& have been doing so for 1000s of years now (no, it isn’t a new phenomenon; it’s just that with our exponential population growth, our impacts too have become exponential)

& really, one can scarcely even take it in!


I still walk most days.

Will be a “nature-lover” until I croak


& I think


Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.





Yup yup yup yup yup.


Pity we’ve made/keep making such a horrific mess of both, mostly.



‘Quote of the day’ with this post: “My predominant feeling is one of gratitude. I have loved and been loved. I have been give much and I have given something in return. Above all, I have been a sentient being, a thinking animal, on this beautiful planet, and that in itself has been an enormous privilege and adventure.” – Oliver Sacks, doctor, neurologist, prolific author, in his book Gratitude, essays written during his last 2 years of life

 “The last of the human freedoms is to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances.” – Viktor Frankl

 p.s. NTE section of the blog here. Links to resources you can consult (plenty of ‘em!), some pithy quotations … even a support group! 🙂  There are postings on grief, here &here. Grief is for real. We’re allowed to be sad! (I think we’d have to be made of stainless steel, not to feel grief about what’s going on all around us … don’t you??)

 p.p.s. this gem came my way yesterday. Joanna Macy on how to prepare internally for whatever comes next.  🙂 🙂   I’m a big fan of Joanna Macy. This is one wise, wise woman.

While we are still here

While we are still here?


‘Quote of the day’ with this post:

“4 Rules for Life

  • Show up.
  • Pay attention.
  • Tell the truth.
  • Don’t be attached to the results.”   – Angeles Arrien, U.S. teacher, author (1940 – )

Viktor Frankl, Oliver Sacks, Kurt Vonnegut — & KC

So, I’ve long had this lovely quotation in my collection:

“The last of the human freedoms is to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances.” – Victor Frankl

(2 other Frankl gems I came across when I did the search in my Quotes document:

“Success, like happiness, cannot be pursued. It must ensue. And it only does so as the unintended side effect of one’s personal dedication to a cause greater than oneself.” –Victor Frankl

“What is to give light must endure burning.” – Victor Frankl)

& then this morning, I caught part of a short documentary about Frankl, on CBC Radio.

The man was an amazing one!! So glad I caught most of that documentary! 🙂 It’s here.


Oliver Sacks said this, that I greatly appreciate, & keep sharing with people:

“My predominant feeling is one of gratitude. I have loved and been loved. I have been given much and I have given something in return. Above all, I have been a sentient being, a thinking animal, on this beautiful planet, and that in itself has been an enormous privilege and adventure.” – Oliver Sacks, doctor, neurologist, prolific author, in his bookGratitude, essays written during his last 2 years of life


Kurt Vonnegut used to exhort people to say, as often as possible, “If this isn’t nice, I don’t know what is.

Sometimes, I need to be reminded of this!

Maybe we all do.


These are insane & scary times to be a (conscious) human being.

Some days, I need simple reminders that

a) I am in charge of my own attitude … still, & always

b) my life is very good indeed, & I have a ton to be grateful for … still, & always


As a friend of mine said the other day, however deep our awareness of the frightening depth of the numerous crises we’ve caused, that are now strangling the life out of us,

“Celebrate because we are still here! There’s opportunity still to make a difference, and love, laugh, cry, sing and be still.”

& so it is.


p.s. thanks, KC!


I am a GMO *

<drafted Jan. 2014>


Genetically-modified organism

(Using the term somewhat loosely.)

So are you!

My/our genes/genetic make-up have been/are being modified by

  • Air pollution
  • Chemicals of a dizzying # & variety; enough to make your head spin….
  • Dioxin exposure
  • Electromagnetic radiation from wireless devices/cell phones
  • Excessive UVB radiation due to ozone layer depletion
  • Farm chemicals in air, water sources, soils
  • Lawn chemicals
  • Lead exposure
  • Pesticides in our food
  • Radioactive fallout from bombs/weapons testing (this goes back decades)
  • Radioactive fallout from nuclear accidents (ever-ongoing)
  • “Routine” radioactive emissions from nuclear plants (constant)
  • Other stuff I am forgetting right now…


(all of these things man-made, btw, in case you hadn’t noticed.)

Babies, as we know, are now born “pre-polluted.”

But you knew that.

Now me, I did not know all this when I launched into motherhood. I was as ignorant of all these environmental threats/toxins as the day, as they say, is long. I was positively starry-eyed in those long-ago days. Heck, I still believed in fairy tales!

“Happily ever after” & all that jazz.

Since my children (long since no longer children) were young, I’ve been learning about the various & assorted, myriad ways in which our immune systems are attacked & become compromised by exposure to all these awful (invariably invisible) substances.

Nasty! 🙁  Ugh! Let me count the ways.

I ask you: Did any of us ask for, desire, expect or consent to ANY of this?

Emphatically, emphatically not.

Not not not not not. 🙁 🙁 🙁


So now what??

Well. Here we are, all of us, living together in something of a toxic soup, now … hmmm? It’s sort of crummy or churlish of me to point this out – especially as we surely all know it anyway, on some level, at least, & are perhaps just doing our best in a vague & pathetic sort of way to pretend we don’t. Just all of us kind of treading water … as it were?

Yet I am a stubborn truth-teller, & do think it’s pretty much impossible to lead a sane & balanced life if we are all the time going around telling ourselves whoppers from one end of the day to the other.

(Granted I am an oddball; not much of a consumer or shopper, & a stubborn non-TV-owner/watcher. I am not a big fan of what loosely passes for culture these days, I guess it would be safe to say.)

Yet I am also a cheerful & often joyful person in the face of all this. Because I walk daily, smile at strangers (especially children & dogs 🙂 ), practice gratitude daily (or, well, at least often!!), see folks I care about as often as possible, laugh whenever possible, do work that has great meaning for me (environmental activism), sing sometimes (should do so more!) & choose to eat organic (as opposed to non-organic) food whenever possible.

So, while I may be a genetically-modified organism, & my immune system (like that of the planet’s) is daily more & more compromised, I’m doing my best not to add unnecessarily to the load of toxins in my body.

It seems all too likely we are going down as a species (likely quite a bit sooner than we may think), as I allude to often enough in postings on this blog (check this posting for a whole list that includes postings, graphics, quotations), but…


We still have now!

This moment.

This sky.

This body of water.

These loved ones.

This moment of laughter.

This celebration.

This plate of nourishing food.


We’re ALL GMOs.


Let’s have a party!  🙂 🙂 🙂


… & be as decent as possible to each other, & the planet, as we can manage, while we are still here.



‘Quote of the day’ with this post: “Truth is the only safe ground to stand on.” – Elizabeth Cady Stanton

 Others that seem relevant:

“The further a society drifts from the truth, the more it will hate those who speak it.” – George Orwell

“In a time of universal deceit, telling the truth becomes a revolutionary act.”  George Orwell

* many more great quotations about truth here

& tons of great quotations of all kinds in the ‘Quotation Central! section)

 “The most revolutionary thing one can do is always to proclaim loudly what is happening.” – Rosa Luxemburg

 When a population becomes distracted by trivia, when cultural life is redefined as a perpetual round of entertainments, when serious public conversation becomes a form of baby-talk, when, in short, a people become an audience, and their public business a vaudeville act, then a nation finds itself at risk; culture-death is a clear possibility.” – Neil Postman

Tom Robbins on “crazy wisdom”: “Crazy wisdom is the wisdom that evolves when one, while refusing to avert one’s gaze from the sorrows and injustices of the world, insists on joy in spite of everything. Ancient Egyptians believed that when a person died, the gods immediately placed his or her heart in one pan of a set of scales. In the other pan was a feather. If there was imbalance, if the heart of the deceased weighed more than the feather, he or she was denied admittance to the afterworld. Only the lighthearted were deemed advanced enough to merit immortality.”

My Kitchen Table


The older I’ve become, the messier I’ve become.

My kitchen table? Oh dear.

More than a little messy around the edges… 🙁


I’ve long had this habit of using bits of paper

To remind me of important things.


(a former boyfriend called them “tent” notices.

pieces of paper folded in half

standing up so the message stands out

& they are, I guess, rather tent-like)


The ones that are standing there now?

These days? Lately? say


Brace for Impact


Show up


I guess that about sums it all up

These daze



& yes, “showing up” takes on different meanings

in these mind-bogglingly challenging times…


Its meaning morphs.

Keeps on morphing, it seems to me,

Day by day by day.


‘Quote of the day’ with this post: “Just sit down and be quiet. You are drunk, and this is the edge of the roof.” – Rumi, 13th century Sufi mystic & poet

“Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing. To keep our faces toward change and behave like free spirits in the presence of fate is strength undefeatable.” – Helen Keller

On nothing being what we thought: “The trick is to keep exploring and not bail out, even when we find out that something is not what we thought. That’s what we’re going to discover again and again and again. Nothing is what we thought. I can say that with great confidence. Emptiness is not what we thought. Neither is mindfulness or fear. Compassion – not what we thought. Love. Buddha nature. Courage. These are code words for things we don’t know in our minds, but any of us could experience them. These are words that point to what life really is when we let things fall apart and let ourselves be nailed to the present moment.” – Pema Chödrön in the chapter ‘Intimacy with Fear’ in When Things Fall Apart – Heart Advice for Difficult Times  (1997)

“It is one of the beautiful compensations of life, that no man can sincerely help another without helping himself.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

“In helping others we shall help ourselves, for whatever good we give out completes the circle and comes back to us.” – Flora Edwards

 “A thousand words will not leave so deep an impression as one deed.” – Henrik Ibsen

“It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; What is essential is invisible to the eye.” ~ Antoine de St. Exupéry in The Little Prince

“Tho’ much is taken, much abides.” – Tennyson

Thomas Merton said it best: “Do not depend on the hope of results. You may have to face the fact that your work will be apparently worthless and even achieve no result at all, if not perhaps results opposite to what you expect. As you get used to this idea, you start more and more to concentrate not on the results, but on the value, the rightness, the truth of the work itself. You gradually struggle less and less for an idea and more and more for specific people. In the end, it is the reality of personal relationship that saves everything.” (quoted by Carolyn Baker in her book review of the Guy McPherson book Going Dark)

“Thomas Merton, the Trappist monk and social activist, once said that as he grew older he came to understand that it was not ideas that change the world but simple gestures of love given to the people around you, and often to those you feel most at odds with. He said that in order to save the world you must serve the people in your life. ‘You gradually struggle less and less for an idea,’ Merton wrote, ‘and more and more for specific people. In the end, it is the reality of personal relationship that saves everything.’” – from Broken Open – How Difficult Times Can Help Us Grow, by Elizabeth Lesser

When asked why the cellist is risking his life every day to play his cello on the street in the spot where 22 people were killed while waiting at a bakery to buy bread, the character Dragan says to Emina, “Maybe he’s playing for himself. Maybe it’s all he knows how to do, and he’s not doing it to make something happen.” ‘And he thinks this is true. What the cellist wants isn’t a change, or to set things right again, but to stop things from getting worse. Because, as the optimist in Emina’s mother’s joke said, it can always get worse. But perhaps the only thing that will stop it from getting worse is people doing the things they know how to do.’” – from The Cellist of Sarajevo, by Steven Galloway <pg 126>

4 Rules for Life

  • Show up.
  • Pay attention.
  • Tell the truth.
  • Don’t be attached to the results.” – Angeles Arrien, U.S. teacher, author (1940 – )

What are we here for?  “.. we’re here to help each other get through this thing, whatever it is.”(So said Mark Vonnegut, son of Kurt Vonnegut. Vonnegut’s last public speech is here. Worth reading!!)