Vaccines: Flabbergasted, Gobsmacked … & more

As I’ve mentioned elsewhere, I knew essentially nothing about vaccines 6 months ago. Vaccines & childhood vaccinations (well, vaccinations, period) were simply not on my radar screen at that time.

They grabbed onto me back in February when a fellow activist colleague sent out a message about vaccinations & Vitamin C.

I sent the message on to several close friends & asked them for their opinions.

It was the replies from these friends that actually got me on the learning-about-vaccines highway. Totally un-planned. A detour for then-anti-nuclear activist me. An entirely unexpected detour.

The vaccine issue simply took me so by surprise, it took me by storm. It kidnapped me. Ambushed me.

At first, I suppose I was simply surprised. As in “Whoa! I didn’t even know there was an issue around this stuff … any controversy … at all!”

Pretty soon I moved into being stunned & shocked.

“Whoa!!” I was saying. “Holy shit! OMG!!! All this has been going on: autism rates skyrocketing, the number of vaccinations being given to children – & to adults! – going pretty much ballistic, the U.S. Centers for Disease Control (CDC) MMR-autism link scandal (others call it a fraud & a cover-up, & it is both of those, but it is also a scandal; let’s call a spade a spade, shall we?) … while I simply wasn’t paying any attention at all!”


By the time I’d watched

Shots in the Dark (National Film Board film from 2008)      Shots in the Dark

Silent Epidemic; The Untold Story of Vaccines (2013)

The Vaccine Panel: The Insider’s Report (2016). Panel discussion in L.A. in Feb. 2016. A ton of useful info. Includes a panelist who used to work for Merck (pharmaceutical company) & now preaches an anti-vaccination message (her site) ++ affected parents & 2 MDs. Herd immunity thoroughly covered.

BOUGHT – the truth behind vaccines, big pharma and your food  (2014)   Parents of vaccine-damaged children. 2 whistleblowers.  Big fines levied against Pharma giants GlaxoSmithKline & Johnson & Johnson. Excellent. (I’ve seen only Part I so far.)

Trace Amounts – Autism, Mercury, and the Hidden Truth (2014)   Fantastic resource on the long history of thimerosal use (the story of how it came to be used is a shocker!); science that has proven its dangers over & over & over again; how the CDC found a strong autism link, then massaged the data until it “went away” – with shots of the transcript of the secret “Simpsonwood” meeting – & voice recordings of Dr. William Thompson, the CDC scientist who is now ashamed of his vaccine work with CDC & states the CDC has put vaccine science 10 years behind. Also: the Bush ties – both Georges – with the pharmaceutical industry. How males are at much higher risk for autism. Other sources of mercury in the environment. Decades of the autism rate being 1 in 10,000. Through the 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s, 70s, 80s. Until the 90s. Then? The autism generation. Aluminum also mentioned, btw. (I rented the documentary online. $6 for 72 hours of use. Highly recommended!)

& this lecture Trojan Horses & Cluster Bombs <Nov. 2015> by Dr. Suzanne Humphries about aluminum in vaccines

… well, by then I wasn’t just stunned anymore. I’d become appalled & sickened – heartbroken, actually – that such a horrific, purely greed, profit-driven (only supposedly health-driven) agenda – was, has been & still is – taking place all around us – pushed & driven by our “health care” professionals & “health” agencies, no less.

Whoa! Whoa, whoa, whoa…

So, yes, by this time, after hours & hours of watching documentaries, reading articles, watching YouTubes – learning of the autism epidemic (but not just the autism epidemic; also the rising epidemic of sick children: of asthma & allergies, learning disabilities, ADD, ADHD, diabetes, etc. etc. etc.), the U.S. CDC (Centers for Disease Control) cover-up, & gradually, learning about the devastation to people’s lives

… & simultaneously, the growing body of science about the dangers of the MMR vaccine in particular (& the others, more generally … since it’s not just about babies & children & autism; it’s about all vaccines, & people of all ages)

& the growing number of doctors now dissenting, thank you very much, from the Great Vaccine Experiment

(& the U.S. Congressman calling for an investigation into the CDC cover-up)

I was (& continue to be) stunned, shocked, sickened, appalled & horrified – & also, it’s fair to say, flabbergasted & gobsmacked

by what’s been going on while so very very many of us have simply not been minding the store.

& then

Then, when I began to stick my head up above the parapet (as it were), & becoming vocal about what I’d learned – on my blog, on Facebook, & via my email lists (did I mention I’ve been an activist for 30 years now? Information-sharing & networking are what I do)

I became once again, flabbergasted & gobsmacked … this time, at people’s reactions & remarks.

What People Say!

I’m not going to quote anyone. (I’m kind of embarrassed for people; some things some (not all) say are pretty irrational, & make it abundantly clear they have spent no time at all doing any meaningful research of their own.)

But you can characterize many of the remarks as:

“Have you gone crazy? Vaccinations are like motherhood & apple pie. You’re just nuts for questioning them!!”

I suppose what has shocked me the most is people’s apparent unwillingness to pursue the research sources I’ve suggested to them – even a little – for themselves.

That is what I really want (& beg) people to do.

Not to accept my word for this, for after all, I’m only 6 months into this learning experience. Don’t trust me. Check out the scientists, the researchers. The doctors who used to be pro-vaccine, who are now vocally anti. The Congressmen demanding the CDC be brought to heel, & dangerous substances be taken out of vaccines.

& not just to accept the bland reassurances of the pharmaceutical industry-backed “experts” who claim all is well. (It is well, for them! Very very well indeed. Billions of $$ of profit for Big Pharma. Financial incentives for doctors who keep their patients on the full vaccine regime in the U.S. (so I have heard). Collusion with government agencies, what we could call the “health establishment.”)


By people’s naivete in supposing that Big Pharma & Big Government really & truly have ours – yours & my … & our children’s – best interests at heart. As if!

I suppose this naivete is somewhat touching, rather poignant, even (we humans are fundamentally such naive and trusting creatures, hmmmm?). But … very (very!) dangerous!

I may have neglected to mention that I’ve been an activist for 30 years now, & learned the long, slow painful way that so-called “regulatory agencies” – on pesticides & nuclear energy, for example, issues on which I spent years in the trenches – are utterly captives of industry, utterly corrupted, & that while they claim to be “regulators,” they are in fact out-&-out promoters of industry agendas. I was a slow learner, I’m afraid. The news on all this was so deeply disturbing, I took it on fully quite slowly. Now I see that our “health agencies” are health agencies in name only. I’m sure doctors set broken bones well (I certainly hope they do!), but they do entirely too much quarterbacking for the pharmaceutical industry that wines, dines & bribes them, along with politicians & the overall “health establishment.”

I point people to the science on the MMR-autism link (also this mind-blowing one) … & other health impacts, from other vaccines; scary, truly scary. I send them YouTube links about the growing number of doctors dissenting

(Dr. Humphries memorably said

“I was once an idiot. I once thought that people who didn’t vaccinate were taking advantage of all the people that were. I thought that they were being privileged opportunists, and I was a vaccinating doctor, because I was taught nothing about vaccines, because I had never met an unvaccinated child. But once I met unvaccinated children, and started seeing problems first-hand with vaccinations in my own patients – and started doing my own research – I flipped around 180 degrees. And I’ve known other doctors that were able to do that as well, and some of them, because parents like you have presented the facts to them – quietly, calmly and rationally. That’s key.” (find this near the end of her Finland talk, here).


All of it seemingly falling on deaf ears! Deaf ears & closed minds.

“Don’t confuse me with the facts” is the reaction I am (mostly) receiving.

So, flabbergasted I remain.


Does it take seeing at first hand a precious, healthy, beautiful, dearly-loved infant, toddler or child – morphing overnight into a fever & convulsions-affected, clearly suffering, pain-afflicted child – & then into an unresponsive automaton (parents repeatedly report that their baby is suddenly … gone. Just … gone) … or even dying (& again, it is not “just” babies affected, but people of all ages, reacting in scary numbers to any/all vaccines)

to be able to listen to, & hear, the 1000s & 1000s of parents now affected by this vaccine-induced epidemic? Who have been trying to warn us for quite some time now?


Apparently, it does!

Apparently, it does.


Colour me

  • sickened

  • stunned

  • saddened

  • horrified

  • appalled

  • flabbergasted

  • gobsmacked

  • heartbroken

& also, very very VERY frustrated.

The Ironies

The so-called “anti-vaxxers” are not only not the devil’s spawn (as some particularly vociferous voices on Facebook seem to suggest; their overheated reactions stun me!)

They were

Parents. Who. Had. Their. Children. Vaccinated

& were harmed – deeply, irrevocably harmed

They have had to deal with a medical community that first of all bullied & harassed them into “getting with the program” & administering to their children supposedly “safe” vaccinations

& then, once their children were harmed, largely abandoned them.

Only after becoming like proverbial canaries in the coal mine did they become “anti-vaxxers” (if they are indeed “anti-vax.” Many seem simply to be calling for more research, safer vaccines, a CDC that can be trusted – though that’s probably an impossibly tall order).

These people have walked through the fire, Reader!

Only then to be scorned, criticized and ridiculed by other parents & “health” professionals for not being happy converts to the Great Vaccine Experiment.


Well. I’ve just thought of another word to add to my list.


I was tempted to say I apologize if I’ve offended you with my passion & anger on this issue.

But you know what?

I’m not going to do that.

I am not sorry for speaking up. I am only sorry now that I remained ignorant about this issue for so bloody damn long.

I invite (& implore) you join me in waking up & smelling the coffee. (& then, in taking action!)


p.s. do you want to hear another irony? You can bet your sweet patootie that a whole lot of CDC staff members (all too well aware of the scandal that had CDC scientists manipulate & then destroy data & documents proving the MMR vaccine-autism link & cover it up for 14 years until whistleblower Dr. William Thompson spilled the beans) do not have their own children vaccinated. & I bet you plenty of pharmaceutical industry folks don’t have their kids vaccinated, either (or take medications that they know full well are dangerous). & I bet you plenty of doctors who push vaccines down your throat, don’t have their kids vaccinated.

Do you see why I feel more than a little outraged??

p.p.s. please consider visiting the Learn The Risk Web site. A former Merck (pharmaceutical) rep left her career & has become passionate about informing parents about vaccine risks. Her site has a ton of useful information. You can see photos of children who met with disaster (or death) as a result of vaccinations. These images will very likely hurt or break your heart. My own heart was already broken on this subject before I came across her site, & I’ll admit, I am only able to look at the page quickly, in passing.

But we honour the affected families by being willing to confront the truth of what really, actually happened to them … and surely, that is the very least we can do for families whose lives have been put through a meat-grinder of unimaginable personal tragedy and loss?

*** For information on the Canadian scene, best place to visit is Vaccine Choice Canada. Simply TONS of great information there.

p.p.p.s. please visit the VAXXED Web site to learn about that documentary, & for a ton of related & useful information. Short-term viewing options now available for minimal cost. DVDs of the documentary will be available soon!

p.p.p.p.s. my 4 previous postings have also been about vaccines/vaccination. Feel free to check them out. The one called ‘Vaccines: 12 things you may not know’  contains a very large # of links that can help you learn plenty about this important issue (& it is very-very far from being exhaustive!?). But to be quite honest, you could probably learn all you need to know from the Learn The Risk site!

p.s. # 5: I must also, & very importantly, add that as I have talked about this more & more with friends, I’ve learned that the number of vaccine-injured children is very high … & not reflected in doctors’/health units’ statistics, as the doctors involved almost invariably deny that the child’s allergic reaction or subsequent health issues are related to the child’s vaccination! So there is truly an epidemic not just of known vaccine injuries, but of un-reported ones. Finally, the more parents I talk to among my admittedly limited acquaintance of parents with children born since 1989 (when the # of vaccines being given was bumped up)

the more I hear that parents who choose not to vaccinate their children due to their concerns about possible negative outcomes (or possibly having suffered a negative or disastrous one, then subsequently refraining from additional vaccinations), are very-very quiet about their decision – because all they get is horrific flack if they make the mistake of speaking up about it.

I have to emphasize something yet again. I’ve been an activist for 30 years now, got into the game (having at the start, of course, no conception whatsoever of the places this activism would take me) because I cared (still care) so much about the state of the world … not just for my own children, but for all children, & all human beings (well, all creatures!).

I only began learning about this particular issue a little under 6 months ago now.

I was, am now, & suspect I will remain, flabbergasted & gobsmacked.

Both by the true situation, & by people’s seemingly unquestioning attitudes about it.

I suppose people need to feel they can retain some trust in someone – some professional group, some agency – in this ever-more-messed-up, unpredictable, chaotic world of ours. They want so badly to be able to trust. I understand that.

But it does not pay to be unquestioning in this world of ours, I’m afraid. It just really, really doesn’t.