Shabby (& not so shabby)

The word “shabby” came into my mind the other night when I was musing about my apartment, & the building it’s in.

Then the thought jumped in that there have been people in my life who have treated me rather shabbily, over the years.

Don’t worry. I’m not going to name any names.

Funny how we may forgive, but … forget? Hmmmm. Not quite so easily, eh? Once in a while up shoots a memory of some crappy things So-and-So did. Then that person falls completely out of my mind again, & yay for that! 🙂 What an endless parade up there in our “drunken monkey” minds, eh? Sheesh.)

As it happens, I do live in a somewhat shabby apartment building (ever the downwardly-socially mobile person, that’s me! Funny … & also true!).

Centipedes. Broken landings on stairs. Appalling electrical inadequacies. Filthy windows. (Excessively) dope-smoking (& seemingly) nutbar neighbours… etc. etc. etc.


But hey!

Today I got my teeth flossed. I even had a shower!! (This latter more of an achievement than you might think, what with the broken bone in the foot & all. Ms. Gimp in the shower, I tellya.)

& hey! I also swept the floors, & (mostly) did not feel sorry for myself today.

I even went out to do an errand (on foot) & see a movie with a friend. Big day!!

Tomorrow I hope (well, plan) to wash out some underwear (the laundromat’s a bit of a stretch at this point) &, let’s see – return books to the library? Okay. Not likely. More of a rest day, likely.

&, in spite of the ongoing dope-smoking-neighbour hassles (how ANYbody’s lungs can deal with that much dope – he’s a cigarette smoker, too – or how anyone’s BUDGET can be up to that much dope consumption, is beyond me; this guy does it as many as 5 x a day!? & up it wafts, of course, right into my bedroom, bathroom & kitchen) …& this darn boot I have to wear on my foot for weeks or months (argh) …

It just so happens that cardinals sing outside my window in the mornings – & I do dearly love cardinal song. 🙂🙂🙂

And, given what I believe about the state of the world

🙁 🙁 🙁 🙁 🙁

(I think we’re on a run-away train that is really gathering steam)

… this not a small thing in the great scheme of things – in my little world, anyway.


Trees are budding, the ice on the sidewalk is FINALLY gone, & … sure!

A no-doubt brutal summer lies ahead ... but we’ll deal with that when the time comes, no??

  • Present moment

  • Present moment

  • Present moment 

My goals are becoming ever more modest.

  • Don’t waste hours & hours watching ‘Arrested Development’ (fun though it can be at times 🙂 … & of course the world doesn’t end when I do it - when it’s all I have the energy for…)

  • Don’t go too long without flossing my teeth

  • Get the dishes done before going to bed, if at all possible (& if not, no big deal. Tomorrow is another day!! As far as we know. & hey, if it isn’t, for some reason, unwashed dishes will be no big deal … will they??)

And hey!

Be sure to listen to the cardinals (& other birds) sing!


p.s. & enjoy the view! I have a lake view! Of course it’s not exactly what most people think of when they hear the words “lake view” – & I only have it until the leaves come out on the trees, & it’s only visible from the window in the shower, not from the living room, and, well, here is a picture of my lake view taken while standing on the side of the bathtub, so you can see it for yourself!

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& it’s a whole lot better than no lake view at all!! Even just knowing the lake is so close by is an enormous comfort to me... truly!

Zen Poem:

A man travelling across a field encountered a tiger. He fled, the tiger after him. Coming to a precipice, he caught hold of the root of a wild vine and swung himself over the edge.

The tiger sniffed at him from above. Trembling, the man looked down to where, far below, another tiger was waiting to eat him. Only the vine sustained him.

Two mice, one white and one black, little by little started to gnaw away the vine. The man then saw a luscious strawberry near him. Grasping the vine with one hand, he plucked the strawberry with the other.

How sweet it tasted.