Once upon a time, I used to be Little Ms. Sunshine
(kind of; a lot of the time, anyway)
Not so much.
I feel weighed down. Weighted down
Bowled over. Almost bowled under
by a variety of circumstances, challenges & grief(s)
some in my personal life
some to do with "the world at large.”
That Little Ms. Sunshine phase?
That “lollipops & roses” phase?
Has pretty clearly left town
Left the building
Left the stage
It’s a new phase, now
A new me.
Under construction, I am
& it’s hard.
I liked Little Ms. Sunshine
She was fun to be on the inside of
But you know?
& you know what they say about change...
they say it’s really the only constant
Here we are, now
Here I am, now
In the here, & now
So be it…
The great morning I had, a few months ago now?
For my work, I went out one morning
To walk around the neighbourhood/area
To try & nail down a venue for an event I was helping to plan
I had an idea when I went out (on foot)
Of a location or two I was going to check out
& then, as I was on my way to one of them
came across a place that had not been on my radar screen at all
So I popped in to check it out
& there were 2 young staffers at this community centre
& as we chatted, the 3 of us,
they pointed out a couple of things I hadn’t known
such as that our event was set for March Break
an important thing to know
(& then they recommended another possible venue or 2)
& I walked on, having learned a couple of things
& at the next place I stopped & looked around in, same deal
Chatted, learned some stuff
& then, onto the next (same deal! :) )
& the one after that
& I had simply the grandest time
& all of this on foot ... & of course I do love to walk!! :) :)
& I got home
& I realized
This had been one of the nicest times I’d had for a long time!
& it was because I was meeting (& chatting with, & learning from)
human beings – in the flesh
In contrast to the way I spend a lot/too much of my time
In front of a computer screen
too much time in front of one of these things
makes me a little craaaaazy.
So. An important lesson learned.
Life’s joys & enjoyments & wonderful
(or even just kind of ho-hum, maybe, but satisfying … you know?) moments
do not (usually) come
while sitting in front of a computer screen
(or whatever “device” you happen to be most addicted to)
but in the presence of actual, in-the-flesh human beings
who live & breathe
& have good ideas
(& who spark some in you, too)
& share wisdom & insights & energy & good ideas & maybe laughs, even
just ... moments of human interaction
Yay, yay, yay!!
p.s. & sure, the world is still "going to hell in a hand basket," likely faster than most of us care to acknowledge (so I quite strongly suspect) – & there is pretty much nothing I can do about that – but I can make it a point to hang around with – & value & enjoy – my fellow human beans while waiting for any more of the axes that are falling & are going to fall…
‘Quote of the day’ with this post: “Many of the things we all struggle with in love and work can be helped by conversation. Without conversation, studies show that we are less empathic, less connected, less creative and fulfilled. We are diminished, in retreat.” – from Reclaiming Conversation – The Power of Talk in a Digital Age, by Sherry Turkle (great interview with her here )