Lollipops & Roses (not) & a great morning I had one day recently…

<May 21/16>

Once upon a time, I used to be Little Ms. Sunshine

(kind of; a lot of the time, anyway)

 

Lately?

Not so much.

 

I feel weighed down. Weighted down

Bowled over. Almost bowled under

by a variety of circumstances, challenges & grief(s)

some in my personal life

some to do with "the world at large.”

 

That Little Ms. Sunshine phase?

That “lollipops & roses” phase?

Has pretty clearly left town

Left the building

Left the stage

 

It’s a new phase, now

A new me.

Under construction, I am

apparently.

 

& it’s hard.

I liked Little Ms. Sunshine

She was fun to be on the inside of

 

But you know?

Shit happens.

Times change.

We change.

 

& you know what they say about change...

they say it’s really the only constant

 

So.

Here we are, now
Here I am, now

In the here, & now

So be it…

***

The great morning I had, a few months ago now?

For my work, I went out one morning

To walk around the neighbourhood/area

To try & nail down a venue for an event I was helping to plan

 

I had an idea when I went out (on foot)

Of a location or two I was going to check out

 

& then, as I was on my way to one of them

came across a place that had not been on my radar screen at all

 

So I popped in to check it out

& there were 2 young staffers at this community centre

& as we chatted, the 3 of us,

they pointed out a couple of things I hadn’t known

such as that our event was set for March Break

an important thing to know

(& then they recommended another possible venue or 2)

 

& I walked on, having learned a couple of things

& at the next place I stopped & looked around in, same deal

Chatted, learned some stuff

& then, onto the next (same deal! :) )

& the one after that

 

& I had simply the grandest time

chatting

learning things

& all of this on foot ... & of course I do love to walk!! :) :)

 

& I got home

& I realized

This had been one of the nicest times I’d had for a long time!

 

& it was because I was meeting (& chatting with, & learning from)

human beings – in the flesh

 

In contrast to the way I spend a lot/too much of my time

In front of a computer screen

 

& frankly

too much time in front of one of these things

makes me a little craaaaazy.

You know??

 

So. An important lesson learned.

 

Life’s joys & enjoyments & wonderful

(or even just kind of ho-hum, maybe, but satisfying … you know?) moments

 

do not (usually) come

while sitting in front of a computer screen

(or whatever “device” you happen to be most addicted to)

 

but in the presence of actual, in-the-flesh human beings

who live & breathe

& have good ideas

(& who spark some in you, too)

& share wisdom & insights & energy & good ideas & maybe laughs, even

You know

just ... moments of human interaction

& conversation.

 

So…  yay!

Yay, yay, yay!!

 

Janet

 

p.s. & sure, the world is still "going to hell in a hand basket," likely faster than most of us care to acknowledge (so I quite strongly suspect) – & there is pretty much nothing I can do about that – but I can make it a point to hang around with – & value & enjoy – my fellow human beans while waiting for any more of the axes that are falling & are going to fall…

 

‘Quote of the day’ with this post: “Many of the things we all struggle with in love and work can be helped by conversation. Without conversation, studies show that we are less empathic, less connected, less creative and fulfilled. We are diminished, in retreat.” – from Reclaiming Conversation – The Power of Talk in a Digital Age, by Sherry Turkle (great interview with her here )