This is all I can offer, today, about grief.

(On a day when I am grieving, & shedding lots of tears, & grateful for the tears - as they are a relief from the anger that has been much too much present, of late.)

So ... thank you, grief ... & tears.

((Grief is never welcome, exactly ... but the tears are healing, surely, & so, I am grateful for them.))

p.s. 2 days later: this graphic/sentiment is also helpful:

Silly Humans! Our Favourite Game (+)

It’s occurring to me (she says to herself, sitting on the GO train on a crazy freezing rain day),

what our favourite game as a species is!


Also, our fatal game.

Our terminal flaw.


The game?

Not connecting the dots.

Just think of the # of things we don’t connect the dots about.


Lots of us don’t even realize the degree to which we pick our life partners in reaction to the legacy/genes/crazy neuroses & shenanigans of our own parents/forebears.

... & oh my, on that alone generally hangs quite a tale!?

Many don’t trace the wicked cancer epidemic we’re drowning in to its most likely key source – nuclear fallout/radiation in the atmosphere from bomb testing, going way back decades.

((& yes, of course there are many other contributing, confounding factors & variables. Thinned ozone layer. Toxics/chemicals of a literally dizzying # & variety in our air, water, soil, food, make-up, nail polish (okay okay, most personal care products), bodies (now from birth). Etc.

Of course! Of course, of course, of course!))

Most of us don’t connect the dots enough to realize we’ve been at war on this planet ... with the planet, with ourselves (not to mention all the other species here) for simply millennia, one way & another.

That our politics have been sick & sour & polluted by the 1% riding roughshod over the 99% …

for so long now we probably can’t even trace it back to its origins. ((not sure about that; I expect there are theories…))

Though patriarchy & the fallout from organized religions (the un-organized ones are likely much less dangerous) have much - very very very much indeed - to answer for.

(she screams inside her head, in silent fury)

Many (many) individuals I know simply refuse to grasp how utterly wrong-headed our medical (so-called) “health care” system is. All that pill-popping & poisoning of our insides going on night & day, day & night. Heaven help us all. Or, well, since I don’t believe in heaven … let us learn to help ourselves, shall we???

  • etc.
  • etc.
  • etc.

& now I’m getting close to home on some not-dot-connecting that is very … very close to home indeed.

Not connecting the dots about things involving our very own spouses/partners/children/families.

Often simply refusing to see the forest for the trees (or do I mean the trees for the forest??) … ‘cos the truth is just too darn uncomfortable / unpalatable / inconvenient / devastating.

… oh help.

& then there are all those people who refuse to investigate the vaccine phenomenon (a very, very un-pretty tale indeed, especially since 1986; got 12 minutes?)  … but also since well before that; can you say “Mercury?”) - but swallow the Kool-Aid/orthodoxy/religion they've been spoon-fed all their years (see comments about our medical system, above).

“To learn who rules over you, simply find out who you are not allowed to criticize.” – Voltaire

People who express concern about environmental issues/crises – yet who nevertheless have never made any adjustments to their personal consumption … lifestyle … carbon footprint (i.e., contribution to greenhouse gases. And granted ... I haven't done enough either. I own a car, & I've broken my no-more-flying pledge more than once. & I'm not vegan, either. Sigh. Mea culpa. We are all "guilty" .... no??)


Seems we are all wearing blinders! By choice, by default …  whatever.

Simply flat out refusing to connect all those (very inconvenient) dots.

& we (some of us, anyway) can be very clever & far-seeing on some issues

& utterly fail to connect the (really very obvious) dots (clear as our noses are, right there on our faces) on a variety of others.


Today (she says, still sitting on the GO train while the ravages of climate change howl around our ears

but very very grateful indeed for public transportation!)

I am thinking

“Gosh. We humans are pretty damn dumb … you know?????”

(for a great walloping Understatement of the Century)


Silly humans.



p.s. Here’s an item I wrote a while back, also on the topic of silly humans:

Silly Humans

<July 6/16>

This world, eh?

What can you make of a world in which half of the “dominant” species (i.e., human beings)

Seem to run the show with their (apparent) brains located (apparently) in an appendage that dangles from the lower half of their body.

While the other half thinks they are some kind of Top (or bottom) Dog (Top/bottom Cat … you know, whatever)

... based on the size of the protuberances on their chests.

No one is in charge of the size of the appendages

(or the protuberances … unless surgery comes into the picture of course)


You Get What You Get

You Are Born with It


& all members of the species have a perfectly good

perfectly miraculous, in fact!



Located in that big ball at the top of their bodies…




A companion (& utterly equally amazing & miraculous) brain chugging away

inside their chest cavity

(yes, our hearts are also our brains).



No need whatsoever for anyone to rely on the appendages

(or protuberances.)


None at all.



Silly humans.



Ah well, eh??

& keep talking, eh???

Vaccines: 12 (or so) things you may not know

1. In 1986, the U.S. government gave the pharmaceutical industry a free pass from liability for their vaccines & any injuries they might cause. Important date to remember! 1986.

2. There has been a massive increase in the # of vaccines being given to children since … 1989. i.e., since the industry got that free pass from liability/lawsuits & geared up their machinery to manufacture & inject more (& also push for mandatory vaccination laws or “mandates”). Vaccines have become Big Business – very big business indeed.  Find some background on this in a short RFK Jr. interview (7 minutes) & a Canary Party item. (5 minutes)

3. There has also been a big bump-up in the number of vaccines being given to children in one (so-very-ironically-named) “well baby” visit. For example, a 2-month old baby in Canada will be dosed with:

DTaP-IPV-Hib: Diphtheria, Tetanus, Whooping Cough, Polio, Hib Pediacel (brand name)

Pneu-C-13: Pneumococcal disease - Prevnar (13 sero groups of pneumococcal organism)

Rot [as of August 2011]: Rotavirus  - Two brands, Rotateq or Rotarix (one of these has pig DNA)

Yes. All at once. At one time. (No, I am not making this up. I only wish I were!?)

** Find the government-recommended list of vaccines displayed by province, as the vaccine schedule varies from province to province.    More info here & here. A form you can present to your doctor (as an educational tool mostly, perhaps), here.

4. There is no science establishing the safety of this increased dose of vaccines to babies / children – whose immune systems are not fully developed. In fact, a recent study ‘Combining Childhood Vaccines at One Visit is Not Safe’ details the lack of safety of this practice of injecting young babies with so many vaccines at one time. (See also ‘Risk of febrile seizures after first dose of measles–mumps–rubella–varicella vaccine: a population-based cohort study[Aug. 2014]

5. There is plenty of science on the connection between vaccines & autism.

(lots more CDC info in the Miscellany posting)

(** Have you placed your trust in the CDC? Read this & this too (from the World Mercury Project)

6. The Supreme Court in the U.S. acknowledges that vaccines are “unavoidably unsafe.”  As for the science on vaccines being “settled” (media like to insert this phrase when attempting to discredit someone who is speaking out on the vaccine topic), I suggest you read this item for a reasoned response to the notion of vaccine science being “settled.”

& do check out this very recent research on unexpected vaccine contents: Dirty Vaccines: New Study Reveals Prevalence of Contaminants     [the study itself is here]

7. Vaccines actually damage the immunity we are naturally born with – our “innate” immune system. We don’t need to inject things from the outside (especially neurotoxins & substances that are carcinogenic!). As Dr. Jayne Donegan has said, “Health is the only immunity. We don’t need protecting from “out there.”

Take 11 minutes & hear M.D. Suzanne Humphries explain a very great deal about vaccines: their safety, efficacy & immunity – & history. This is a formerly-vaccination-giving doctor who has changed her position 100% since she started doing her research. (Check out the quote from her at the end of this posting).

8. Vaccine injuries are legion, simply legion. And vastly, vastly under-reported. There is a vaccination injury reporting system in the U.S. called VAERS (Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System). But most injuries are simply not reported. I can tell you that now, a year into doing research on this issue, I've learned that many of us are either vaccine-damaged ourselves, or our children are/were, & we don’t/didn’t even realize it. This has become clear the more people I’ve talked to, & the more I’ve thought about my own personal situation. Many of our children have allergies/asthma/learning disabilities/ADHD/autism … & various other illnesses/conditions … & our young people now are being said to be very sick, very unwell. Sure, there are lots of possible reasons & causes. We live in a toxic world; believe me, with 30 years of activism under my belt, I’m all too well aware of that! But so many children are clearly vaccine-injured (their parents report dramatic ill effects immediately or very soon after the vaccination took place), & the rates of all these problems (not to mention autism rates) are simply skyrocketing (even the CDC acknowledges this).

Please take a look at my posting on injuries to find a list of places where you can find people’s stories of vaccine injury. (In that posting you’ll also find a nurse’s explanation of how underused the VAERS system is (i.e., how under-reported vaccine injuries are). In Canada we have a lousy, virtually useless reporting system. More about this on the Vaccine Choice Canada site, here.

“Perhaps 98% of all adverse reactions to vaccines are not included in the VAERS database, and up to 25 million U.S. citizens could have been adversely affected by vaccines in the past 25 years.” 'Combining Childhood Vaccines at One Visit is Not Safe' (Journal of American Physicians and Surgeons, Summer 2016)

9. U.S. taxpayers have paid out over $3 billion to families of vaccine injury since that 1986 date I mentioned back in # 1 (via the Vaccine Injury Compensation Program). Remember the liability the pharmaceutical industry was given a free pass on back in 1986? Now Big Pharma does not pay if “vaccine court” finds that vaccines damaged a child. The taxpayer pays. U.S. Congressman Posey discusses this here, & there is a very informative short discussion of this compensation program (“vaccine court”) here.

10. The CDC has been covering up its knowledge of the vaccine-autism link since at least 2001. There is now so much information about this cover-up that it’s actually kind of staggering. But you might not have heard about it, & why is that?

11. There is a media blackout on the down side of vaccines. Mainstream media (MSM) don’t cough up the real goods about the CDC vaccine cover-up scandal, nor of the known vaccine-autism link. How come? Well, because the pharmaceutical industry (“Big Pharma”) provides a very large chunk of many media outlet’s operating budgets, i.e., advertising revenues.

It’s really pretty simple, Gentle Reader.

You don’t bite the hand that feeds you.

(& btw too, far too many doctors are “on the take” from Big Pharma, I am sorry to report.)

In the Journal of American Physicians and Surgeons’ paper ‘Combining Childhood Vaccines at One Visit is Not Safe’ the author speaks to this media blackout situation:

“Our study showed that infants who receive several vaccines concurrently, as recommended by CDC, are significantly more likely to be hospitalized or die when compared with infants who receive fewer vaccines simultaneously. It also showed that reported adverse effects were more likely to lead to hospitalization or death in younger infants.
These findings are so troubling that we expected major media outlets in America to sound an alarm, calling for an immediate reevaluation of current preventive health care practices. But 4 years after publication of our study, this has not happened. Could it be because, according to Robert Kennedy, Jr., about 70% of advertising revenue on network news comes from drug companies? In fact, the president of a network news division admitted that he would fire a host who brought on a guest that led to loss of a pharmaceutical account. That may be why the mainstream media won’t give equal time to stories about problems with vaccine safety.”

12. It is difficult to grasp or truly take in the degree of corporate greed & dishonesty & collusion within the medical establishment … & the fact of our governments/bureaucracies being lodged so very far down deep inside the pockets of industry that it’s amazing there’s any oxygen left for them to breathe!  Yes, I grant you, it is pretty hard to take … to take in … to believe … & most of us would rather not (or so it seems), & I (sort of) get that! But it’s better to know the truth, wouldn’t you say, on a matter of such absolutely vital importance to the health of our children (as well as our own?)

13. You know those crazy, spiteful, kooky, misguided, woefully uneducated anti-vaxxers? This is the way Big Pharma & the medical establishment (& some folks I know personally who have unwittingly swallowed the Big Pharma/medical establishment Kool-Aid hook, line & sinker) like to portray the people who are speaking out on this topic. In actual fact, the people who are speaking up & speaking out are phenomenally well-schooled, & in many cases, also extraordinarily well-educated. They include doctors, scientists, lawyers, law school professors, psychologists, teachers - & also lay people who’ve done a ton of research … often/usually as a direct consequence of having joined the ever-growing ranks of vaccine-injured families. These families know more about vaccines than most doctors!  (Check the Miscellany A- Z posting for a long section on doctors who are speaking out) … & how these affected families/parents ever find the time to do all that self-education & advocacy work (on behalf of others) given the challenges they are dealing with in their own personal lives … well, I’m in awe, & also very grateful. & so should you be! These people are doing all this work on behalf of all of us. We need to be grateful, not contemptuous & dismissive. (Recent thoughtful commentary on this.)

To Conclude

There is a serious health crisis taking place all around us. Vaccine injury goes back a very long way (the history of mercury in vaccines goes back 6 decades or so, & the history of autism is well laid out in the documentary ‘Trace Amounts’) … but it’s gone exponential, pretty much, since that pivotal year 1989 & the big increase in the number of vaccines being given.

Take a look at the Miscellany posting to see the range of things involved. What we’re dealing with is a very large & very serious problem indeed.

Big Pharma, the medical establishment & our governments won’t rest until vaccinations are made mandatory (& not just for babies, though I admit my heart aches the most about the youngest, most innocent & vulnerable members of our population).

As the people who’ve studied this issue so much like to say,

Where there is risk, there must be choice.

We need to be armed with knowledge about vaccine safety, contents & efficacy.

If you take nothing else from this, take this:

You need to be informed. To make informed choices about vaccinations.

Informed consent involves, at the very minimum, learning what is in the vaccines your doctor/nurse/health professional is shooting into your child’s bloodstream (or yours).

*** Demand product inserts.***

Ask yourself this: if vaccines are so safe & effective, why doesn’t your doctor OFFER you those inserts proactively? Why must you beg for them?? (or frankly, even have to ask for them! Surely they should be offered to us!)

& why – if vaccines are so safe – must people be intimidated, browbeaten & forced to submit to vaccination – against their will?

Educate yourself!

(Also know this: not all ingredients are listed. “Unfortunately, even the monographs don’t list every ingredient or all the details about the manufacturing process (which may, as is the case with mercury, leave small but still-significant amounts of harmful substances in the finished product).” 


*** Vaccination: most important decision parents will ever make 


A few relevant quotations…

Dr. William Thompson, CDC whistleblower:

  • “The co-authors scheduled a meeting to destroy documents related to the study. (We) all met and brought a big garbage can into the meeting room, and reviewed and went through all the hard copy documents that we had thought we should discard, and put them into a huge garbage can,” Thompson explained in an affidavit provided in 2014 to a member of a U.S. Congressional committee on science.
  • “The CDC can no longer be trusted to do vaccine safety work.”
  • “Oh my God. I cannot believe we did what we did. But we did.”
  • “The lowest point of my career is that I went along with that paper."
  • “It’s all there – this is the lowest point in my career, that I went along with that paper. I have great shame now when I meet families of kids with autism, because I have been part of the problem.” - Dr. William Thompson

Dr. Suzanne Humphries

“I was once an idiot. I once thought that people who didn’t vaccinate were taking advantage of all the people that were. I thought that they were being privileged opportunists, and I was a vaccinating doctor, because I was taught nothing about vaccines, because I had never met an unvaccinated child. But once I met unvaccinated children, and started seeing problems first-hand with vaccinations in my own patients – and started doing my own research – I flipped around 180 degrees. And I’ve known other doctors that were able to do that as well, and some of them, because parents like you have presented the facts to them – quietly, calmly and rationally. That’s key.” – Dr. Suzanne Humphries in her Nov. 2015 lecture Trojan Horses & Cluster Bombs (In an 11-minute YouTube on vaccine safety, efficacy & history, she explains how the immune system works, the importance of breastfeeding, the impacts of aluminum in vaccines ... & much important material is covered in a very short time!)

“They don’t teach us about the ingredients, they don’t teach us about the studies behind it…what they teach us is that they’ve always been given.” – Dr. Rachel Ross

“Dr. Rachel Ross, one of the stars of the Emmy award-winning daytime show, The Doctors, says she regrets not understanding the dangers of vaccines at an earlier point in time. Speaking at a ‘Vaxxed’ movie premiere, Dr. Ross said of medical school, “They don’t teach us about the ingredients, they don’t teach us about the studies behind it…what they teach us is that they’ve always been given.”  She went on to say that she ‘almost feels like an ass’ for having not understood vaccines better.”  

*** More from Dr. Rachel Ross, about her perspective as a doctor & mother.

“Perhaps 98% of all adverse reactions to vaccines are not included in the VAERS database, and up to 25 million U.S. citizens could have been adversely affected by vaccines in the past 25 years.” - from 'Combining Childhood Vaccines at One Visit is Not Safe' (Journal of American Physicians and Surgeons, Summer 2016)

2 mothers:

“I saw it. I felt it. I questioned it. But I didn’t question loud enough. I allowed them to bully me. And that’s something I have to live with.” <the mother of 11-year old autistic daughter. In Silent Epidemic; The Untold Story of Vaccines (2013)         <at 1:41>

“You really need to think twice and really need to learn the risks that truly are there and that are involved if you decide to vaccinate your child.” <the same mother as above. At 1:44>

“The boys that were so happy – always smiling – looking at me – blabbering – saying, even if it was mama, dada, you know – they just disappeared. I’m not deluded. I actually saw my children disappear right in front of me.” – Nina Lteif, mother of Eli & Christian, her twin sons who became autistic right after their MMR shot at 18 months. From the documentary ‘Man Made Epidemic.’


** Lots more quotes here (doctor ones) & here (bit of a messy mash-up; sorry about that!?).